So........ I am usually upbeat, and I like upbeat music. I am a happy person.
But not lately.
I'm not quite sure what's going on, but instead of fighting it like I usually do, I have given in. I don't intend to stay down... anyone who knows me even a little bit knows that keeping me down is impossible. However..... this time, for a little while, I am allowing these feelings to wash over me like scalding water.
I am a very strong woman. I carry a lot. And I carry it with ease most of the time. I am a true and loyal friend.
When I love you, I love you. Period.
I speak my mind. ALWAYS. Even when I know it's gonna come back and bite me in the ass. And while I know that integrity is a great quality, there are just times when things do not need to be vocalized. This is the tough part for me.
I know I'm a good person, and I think most people would tend to agree. Except for the ones who don't.
There is a line from one of my very favorite songs that reads: "...Or should I just get along with myself? I never did get along with everybody else....." While I have been trying hard to do what's right, I don't always succeed. Turns out, people are threatened by strong women. Men are supposed to be strong, but women are supposed to be meek and mild. I tried that, it didn't take.
It is a tough job, meshing the tough cookie with the tender heart. It leads to being often misunderstood.
I am not as compassionate as I should be, I know this. I am not as humble as I should be, I know this too. I am hard to handle and sometimes even harder to please. I have a sharp tongue. But I also have a big heart. I have many flaws, but if you can't handle them, then you don't deserve the rest of me.
Here ya go...I love these lyrics- they make me feel less isolated.
Other Fish in the Sea...
6 years ago