I'm thinking I may have jumped the gun a little. I do that occasionally. It's a fault of mine. One of many, I might add. But among many faults are a lot of good things. Like the ability to love unconditionally and without judgment. And to accept people for who they are and see beyond flaws. And give of myself without any expectations of anything in return.
Because of these things I don't get a lot of middle ground. Either people accept and become close to me or they are constantly waiting for the other shoe to drop and looking for ways to undermine my intentions. But I never ever have to question who my true friends are. The people that I number among friends, though may be few, would defend me to the death. Even if they knew I was dead wrong. That is an amazing feeling.
As for the others, well, here is something that I have learned. You can't change how people feel about you. Either they will accept your words and actions as true or they won't. And you can try and try and try, but if they have it in their minds that you are a bad person, there is nothing you will ever do or say to change that. So, you can either let that rule you and eat you alive, or you can find a way to make peace with it. I recommend the latter. It's the only way you will ever find true happiness. If you can find peace within yourself then there is nothing that anyone can do or say to take that away. Guilt is for sucks. So is hate and anger and bitterness. Let it go.
With that said...Here is my new 2010 theme song.
When people are unhappy it's so much easier to place the blame elsewhere than to look inside and see where the true ugliness lies. There will always be another offense in their eyes. But as long as you recognize the goodness in yourself, nothing they do or say can touch you.
Other Fish in the Sea...
6 years ago